From the looks of things, I am not longer on speaking terms with my mother. Things have been strained between us for a while, but today the solid human waste product really hit the air redistribution unit (shit hit the fan). She has treated Dad like crap through their divorce and she keeps doing so. When I didn't reply to her "poor picked on me, your dad is so mean" IM today, she got really angry. I have felt it is more respectful to hold my tongue and not tell her what I've really thought when she goes off on those rants, but apparently, she thought my not replying was disrespectful. We ended up in an argument in which she essentially told me no one likes me because I am too self-centered.
All of my life, I have bent over backwards to try to make her happy. I have stood up for her when people we know have talked badly about her. I have walked on egg-shells and tried to make sure that I didn't bring p sad memories of her father that killed himself. I have helped her with almost everything she has ever done in my lifetime. But a couple of years ago, I decided my own children and husband took precedence over her. So she hasn't been numero uno on my list of people to please. So apparently I am selfish.
I guess I am just plain done. If she wants to treat me like crap because I finally tell her she isn't perfect, then I do not need her.
It just makes me kind of sad. As much as she has been a bitch, she is my mom, and I really hate the idea of not speaking to her.
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