You know what would be really awesome?

If the man I am currently divorcing were the slightest bit dependable.

All day, Oscar has been asking for "dada", several times even going to the door, patting it and saying "Bye. Dada."

In other words, I can tell he wants to see his daddy. And he was supposed to get to today. But that isn't going to happen. How do you tell a 1 year old that?

When we first separated, he told me he wants equal custody. Honestly, the idea doesn't thrill me, but I want to be fair. So I made several suggestions about how we could split up the time. He opted for a week at a time. One week with me, then one with him. Ok. Except the only time he has actually kept the baby for a full week so far was when I spent 5 days of it hospitalized, then 2 with my mom recovering from surgery. And he got pissy at me for those 2 days with my mom.

So last week, he was supposed to get Oscar Sunday. He canceled because he had a cold. Which I also did and had for a week. Monday, he finally took him because I wigged out a bit about the fact it had been over a month since I had had a real break of any kind (I don't really consider hospitalization and surgery a break) and that he needs to follow through on having Oscar when planned, or not at all. But it turns out the people he is renting a room from don't deal well with having a baby there for a full week. They like Oscar, but they aren't really used to kids and it's a bit much for them. I picked him up Thursday morning.

So Micah suggests 3 days at a time with each of us. My better suggestion, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and every other Thursday with him. Fridays, Saturdays, Sundays, and every other Thursday with me. This gives him every single weekend to do whatever he wants, and gives me a baby break on nights that there is actually something I enjoy doing going on.

But now, he's canceled for this week. And Oscar wants daddy. Mommy won't do. As a matter of fact, when mommy tried to pick him up, he gets upset, cries for daddy and slaps mommy.

A 13 month old child doesn't understand the concept of "wait".